That happened to me yesterday, Betrayal
I was surprised
Every time it has happened in my life, it has been a shock
Thankfully, it has been very few times
Every single one causes a sting
Depending on the depth of the relationship, it causes pain
It is odd because it feels like less of a surprise, especially the older I get
You trust people but you also know of what they are capable
You’ve seen it before
You know it can happen
But still, the sting of betrayal hurts
Forgiveness has to go first
And accepting responsibility for anything I said I shouldn’t have
Things that could somehow be misconstrued,
that the wicked heart of another human could twist or share
to cause strife or dissension
Guarding my tongue would have helped
I should have been more careful
But the tongue can no man tame;
it is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. James 3:8
My own fault, but if no one can tame it,
how do I completely let God take over?
I have to also examine my own heart
I deserve what happened because I shared my soul,
said too much of what was in my heart
and said things that weren’t complimentary to others
The ugly things of the human heart, of my human heart
Create in me a clean heart, O God;
and renew a right spirit within me. Psalm 51:10
Betrayal is a painful experience
It is a feeling of rejection, combined with toxin and then a wound
from the distrust of someone you thought was your friend
Jesus knew Judas was going to betray Him
He always knew
He was God in the flesh
We are not
We know only what His wisdom teaches us
Sometimes God’s wisdom takes a while to sink in
Sometimes years
Sometimes it feels like it will never sink in
Like right now
When will I learn?
That He might present it to Himself a glorious church,
not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing;
but that it should be holy and without blemish. Ephesians 5:27
Is that even possible?
When His disciples heard it, they were exceedingly amazed, saying,
Who then can be saved?
But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible;
but with God all things are possible. Matthew 19:25-26