The pain is unbearable
I wonder how my body can still live
The pangs feel like a knife slicing me up the middle
Are you listening, God
Do you see my suffering?
Do you understand?
You have so many people at your throne
I am just one among many
bothersome, I am sure,
Every day my prayer is the same
The pain goes away then comes back
Each day, it is there again
puts me to sleep and is there when I awake
I have to walk about and try to forget
But it doesn’t go away
It lingers and torments
and brings about the remembrance of the unfulfilled promise,
the broken, seemingly forgotten, unanswered prayer
Why must it tarry?
Could it be there are conflicting prayers and desires?
That I pray for your will and my will as well?
You protect me from my own lusts as I pray
Thy will be done and deliver me from evil
Lord clarify Your will to me
Let my desires be in sync with the desires You have for me
Scriptural References:
The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, And saves such as have a contrite spirit. Psalm 34:18
Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities; for we know not what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. Romans 8:26
Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth? Luke 18:8b
From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2
If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him? Matthew 7:11