You know the ones, where Paul said, that which I hate, I do
Where is the fruit of the Spirit when you need it?
The coffee maker didn’t work in the hotel I was in
I really hate traveling
Most of my self-control went out the window
It was early so I was in my pajamas, didn’t want to get dressed
The maintenance guy didn’t come on for another hour, so said the front desk
So, I put on yesterday’s clothes and my shoes
and marched down to the breakfast area to pour a cup of their coffee
You could see through the coffee
I hate weak coffee
The concierge said it was the same strength
He must like weak coffee because it is nowhere near the same strength
the room coffee maker made
Well, you get the picture and I refrained from saying too much,
which is my usual fleshly response, so maybe I’m growing
Still not good enough
The hotel concierge said he would get me a new coffee machine
just as soon as he could
I thanked him while telling him things were not going well
I got back to my room and the electronic key wouldn’t open the door because,
as they warned me, cell phones will erase the magnetic strip
and I had put them too close together
I went back down to the front desk
The Lord was gentle to me
I told Him it was infringing on my prayer time
He said, ‘You can take this out of My time’
Gulp
Such a gentle God, kind and compassionate
He always knows just the right thing to say
So smart and He knows how to get through to our hearts
While this all seems futile, the fact that my flesh was out of control for any reason was not good, although it was better than I have been
It also made me think of what we are going to lose so soon,
which will pretty much be any and all of the above
How, if I can’t even handle a broken coffee maker, am I going to be able to live in survival mode if need be?
I seem like a lost cause
We have recently heard of tens of thousands of Christians
who have been violently martyred in Nigeria,
the Jews are suffering greatly all over the world
and we know this is just the beginning
And I let myself get all bent out of shape for something so futile?
Furthermore, I don’t know if I can ever get to the place I need to be
because I’m so selfish
Sometimes I love Paul…
For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not;
but what I hate, that do I. Romans 7:15
Onward