Maybe I’m not so loveable sometimes?
Ya think?
Couldn’t be.
I was feeling a little ignored by God.
It took me a while to figure it out, I was so busy being angry at my enemy.
She is such a thorn in my side.
She brought a very bad virus around me.
Of course I caught it.
She was blowing her nose all over the place and didn’t wash her hands.
The doctor gave her antibiotics.
They take 24 hours to kick in. She didn’t wait.
She decided to spread her germs everywhere in the mean time.
Touching things that we both have to touch. I tried to sanitize things, but I guess I didn’t do it enough.
I should have worn a mask and gloves and goggles.
Truly, I wouldn’t have been so bugged if it hadn’t been this person.
Every time I sneezed, coughed, couldn’t sleep because of symptoms,
I was getting more and more frustrated with this person.
I tried to forgive her but I didn’t do a very good job, it seems.
I wasn’t trying enough or forgiving from the bottom of my heart or something.
Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother,
and then come and offer thy gift. Matthew 5:24
I’ve been down this road before.
With this person.
I feel no more love for her than I have before.
I could feel a distance from the Lord.
That’s when I was thinking maybe I am the one who isn’t loveable right now.
All this unforgiveness in my heart and these terrible feelings of meanness that nobody knows about except God.
There are no excuses.
Why can’t I just live my life and this lady can live hers? Why do our paths have to keep crossing?
Will I ever get the victory over this thorn?
She couldn’t be more annoying if she tried.
I think I can’t do this, God. I think I cannot.
Some things just take time. Especially when you’re really slow to learn like I am.
How much patience will He have?
As much as He needs.
When will I gain the victory over this situation?
I think I have it handled and then she does something else.
I just got over the other thing she did and had to get over a few more things since then.
I’m so tired of her.
I don’t like this lesson.
I don’t think I’m ever going to learn it.