Still Struggling

I asked God to please give me practice so I can get better at hearing Him.
I do not want to miss what He is trying to tell me, especially as the days grow darker.
I just read about that prophet who was told not to go back the way he came
and not to eat or drink there and he did? And then he died.
How do I know I’m not like that guy?
Or Moses when he struck the rock twice but was supposed to have only spoken to it?
He didn’t enter the promised land for that fail.
Maybe I’m like them? I really think I need to fast. I keep putting it off.
No human can tell me the answer including myself.
Even though we know the word, Jesus said,
My sheep know My voice and they follow Me. A stranger they will not follow.
And when he putteth forth his own sheep, he goeth before them, and the sheep follow him:
for they know his voice.  And a stranger will they not follow,
but will flee from him: for they know not the voice of strangers. John 10:4-5
But when it comes to difficult decisions, life-changing decisions, it might not be as clear
when you want to really make sure you hear from God.
Sometimes human logic fights with God’s wisdom. It can create a sort of quandary.

I can relate to what God said to Joshua: ‘Wherever the soul of your foot goes.’
Every place that the sole of your foot shall tread upon, that have I given unto you, as I said unto Moses.
Joshua 1:3
That means to me that God blesses us every which way when we are obedient.
It’s the obedient part that I struggle with sometimes, making sure it’s really God giving the direction.

Sometimes there is no magic fix. No matter how many great scriptures you read that seem to fit, they don’t really help with the answer. You pray for wisdom, but when will it arrive? Shouldn’t it just be there?
Solomon had all that wisdom and he blew it big time.

My boss that I cannot stand working for gave me an outstanding review.
I was flabbergasted. Why would she do that. Aren’t we at an impasse?
Isn’t the Lord Jesus telling me leave?
God is not the author of confusion and that is what I have.
I’m going to keep seeking, keep praying, keep struggling…

I’ll keep you posted.